Don't you love the feeling of having a new notebook or journal? All of the pages are clean and unmarked, ready for your thoughts, notes and memories to be put down into legible (or not so legible) words. You can go back and read them to your hearts content, leafing through the past with your present state of mind analyzing what you thought and wondered, feared and wished. I've been doing a lot of analyzing lately; mainly of my reasons for blogging and what I want this blog to turn into. I'm pretty sure most of my reasons are shallow and selfish. As I sat talking to a dear friend this evening I gushed:
"I'd love to expand my readership and be a prominent blogger, and have an etsy shop,
and save money and go to the alt conference some day and wear really cute clothes
and hang out with all of the other artistic and awesome gals who go to that conference!"
But then I remembered reading the blog entries of some very down to earth ladies who let their faith soak through the words on their blogs and permeate their whole website. I would much rather write about the things that are of substance than put pictures up of expensive outfits and decor. Yet I feel this pressure to be just like all of the bloggers with 1,000+ followers who post exactly that. The things of this world.
This blog at the moment is a little half-baked as I haven't had enough time to devote a fully thought out design and organized interface, so please have patience with me! I'll have a new look that's easy for you to navigate soon. I promise. I have my old blog switched over to act as my test blog now, and I'm in the midst of creating something that is totally 'me'.
Do you ever feel the pressure to blog like everyone else?
Do you feel that twinge of jealousy when you see a really cute and successful blog?
Am I the only one who suffers from subconscious cyber peer-pressure?